Seven months later, I can almost safely say that I am settling into my new life away from home. It has been a drastic change and I have had my ups and downs. Right now, at this moment, I am good; I feel like I finally have reached a comfortable middle. I have had a lot of anxiety issues with this move and sometimes it’s difficult for me to even leave the house, but that’s another story. Today, however, I wanted to share with you the three things that have been making me happy.
1- Drake & Christmas carols
Yes, I said it; Drake has been making me ecstatic this month. I have been obsessing over his latest Views album; it has been keeping me company in the kitchen, in the car, in the shower, anywhere, really. He’s got a few songs that just hit it home…not to mention that he’s my homie! Hello Canada! Haha! His cover to Jackson Browne’s These Days is epic! It seriously just gives me life. It’s so poetic and wonderful and listening to acoustic Drake makes him sound so vulnerable and relatable. I have been digging this kinda Drake. I mean I always thought he was bomb, but now, he’s on a whole other level of amazing. I have always turned to music for therapy. I feel like certain songs and lyrics help me get out of any funk state I am in. apart from Coldplay and Ellie Goulding, I wouldn’t say I am an avid musical group lover; I just love music in general. I listen to music depending on my mood. Some days I will listen to an hour long trip hop mix and other days I will listen to Erik Satie….just depends on how I feel. I remember, when I had my mid-life crisis at 25, I was constantly listening to Eminem and I feel like he got me out of a very deep dark phase I was in…that and faith. Anyhow, at the moment, I have also been very much enjoying the Christmas carols. Yes, I know I am Muslim, but that doesn’t change anything, we each have our religions and beliefs, but I grew up in Canada and I grew up in a multicultural and multi-religious environment and I really do appreciate Christmas time. Can you tell I miss the snow and Canada? I mean, its’ December here in Jericho too, but where the heck is the snow people. Where the heck is the 40cm snow storm and electricity shortage…can someone take me there asap!
Um, I have been experimenting a lot in the kitchen and making things works and other things not so much. The overall process of cooking is truly enjoyable. I never thought in a million years that I would say that. I hated being in the kitchen and I hated making anything other than sandwiches and salads. However, at this moment, I am happy cooking. Experimenting has been my thing, I most of the time do not follow recipes; I just go with my gut and wait to see how it comes out. I also have been making loads of cakes and I think I have found a way to make the best chocolate cake ever! And from scratch! EEEEEeekkKK! Happy dance! I bought a bunch of spices and my spice rack is sort of super epic right now, but it’s perfect, because then I know what works with what. The whole culinary experience is very therapeutic, even the shopping bit too. Finding your ingredients and preparing the meal in your head, it’s exciting and frightening and just emotionally fulfilling. I am not Jamie Oliver by any means, but I manage things pretty well in the kitchen area.
No, I am not pregnant and I am not planning on it anytime soon. I just love to hang out with children at the moment. They have this perspective about life that make you fall in love with it all over again. We adults tend to forget the importance of living due to many responsibilities we have on our plates. If we take the time to see the brighter side of things, life becomes brighter and happier. My husband’s nieces and nephews have been hanging out with me loads lately and they’re adorable (sometimes annoying) and just full of excitement. Despite the hardships that many Palestinians live on a daily basis, I find that they find the time to make themselves happy…especially children. I feel like they’re very mature for their age and they tend to be too philosophical sometimes and it’s touching. These little monsters have been showing me the key to life and I am humble and amazed to be a part of their journey. It makes me nostalgic to hang out with them, because I miss my nieces and nephews a whole damn lot, but I always keep them with me in my heart. They truly helped me a lot this month in finding myself again and in highlighting what’s important in life. They have challenged me again and again to keep going and to be happy for that I am forever grateful.
So there you have it, these are some of the important things that have been keeping me chipper this month.
To my readers, wherever you are in your life, may you find happiness, always!